Week 5 and 1 day

Hey All,

The holiday season is officially over and here is where I stand.  I am super happy with my progress, but am in need of making a change.  Over the last few weeks my body has gone through changes that are literally making me uncomfortable in my own skin.  I have a few rashes, my stomach is cramping and my bowels are not moving the way the used to.  After much prayer, some careful research and a sleepless night, I have decided that I will not continue taking the appetite suppressant.  While I know that will impact the rate of my progress, it will not stop me from achieving my goal.

I will continue living on a restricted calorie count and increase the amount of activity I do.  I love the change I feel in my body, I seriously have a lot more energy and confidence than I did in the past.  However, I could not ignore the changes I knew were happening that I did not like.

Yesterday was the first day that I purposefully did not take the medication, and it was a little harder not to eat, but I really think it was a mental state of being.  When I got home, I started to binge eat junk, but blessedly for me, I have an amazing support system (who doesnt know I use medicine, nor that I have decided to no longer use it), who called me on it, and helped me to regain focus.  I still managed to stay within my calorie count.

The friend who introduced me to the program helped me a lot.  I was supposed to go to the doctor yesterday and did not.  It was a part of the sleepless night and decisions that had to be made.  I did not want to pay to hope on a scale and for them to try and persuade me in a direction different that what I thought was best for me.  However, my friend assured me it was not the medicine that made me successful, it was discipline.  While the medicine was supposed to help me not stay hungry, it was self discipline and support that helped me to be faithful and honest in what I ate.  That being said, I know that I can be successful even still.

To start this morning off, I grabbed some fruit, a sugar free drink and a low-cal snack.  I plan to have Chipotle for lunch, calories counted of course, and to continue doing what works for me...loving myself, and fine tuning the treasure that I am...inside and out!

Somehow I missed posting this...