Feeling kind of disgusted...

So I should have posted some of these pics in with earlier posts, but I didn't, so I will back track a little today.  I took the first two pictures (in the black) the day I had had enough.  February 15, 2012!  I decided on this day that I would start a journey to finding fitness that worked for me.  The first thing I did was put on one of the snuggest shirts I owned and grabbed a camera.  One of my frustrations is having such a huge belly.  For years I told myself that I wasn't "fat" because my breasts still stuck out further than my stomach.  Well, as you can see this is no longer true.

 

Front view

 

Side View

 I took these pictures to help me see my progress. I had on a tank top and pajama pants, I wanted to be as honest with myself as possible so I put on clothes that have no forgiveness.

FLASH FORWARD

I was doing well and was highly motivated to stay in the gym, until one day, I didn't go because plans changed!  Which led to another day of not going because plans changed! And yes, you know it, another day of not going because I was too lazy and out of the routine.  My excitement had not worn off, but my old self was coming back! 


To make matters worse I did a lot of eating out over the weekend, and as you can see below, I will pay the price for it.  I took a couple of updated pictures this morning.  I put on a white shirt that fits the same as the black in the previous pictures, but is far less friendly (doesn't have that slimming effect). 


I have an issues with honesty and my body, I often try to pretend things are better than they are.  I find that in order for me to be successful, I have to be honest, even when it hurts and even more so when I don't want to be.  The picture below show how I look and actually how I feel today.  I feel like a big blob that allowed her self to get sloppy fat with greasy fried food that tasted fabulous going down, but look disgusting as they sit around (my waist that is). 

 

Front View (today)

 

Side View (today)

I took these pictures as I was getting ready for work, so It looks a little more firm, but its still  hanging about as low as it was in the pictures above (in the black).

I feel like my body is holding a grudge against me for all that I put it through this last week with not being consistent and poor eating habits.  While I am not happy about it, it is up to me to make the change!